better off.

I am tired. I could not think of any more words to say. The words that I should have uttered are now gone and my mind had gone exhausted from constantly asking of what had happened to us. Say how exactly did we end up here? You are tired and were through, you said, that is why you left me for good. This tragic revelation was followed by another saying that you still love me, but not as much as you felt before. You said you needed to be alone. That’s why I was completely dumbfounded when I learned that you have found a new path and along with this goes your NEW RELATIONSHIP. You left me with fragmented explanations, you left me paralyzed. YOU HAVE LEFT ME.


A month had passed since you’ve left me, and I convinced myself that forgetting you was quite easy, how wrong I was. Indeed, I was very wrong. I’d never thought that you were still a stranger to me, despite the 4 long years I’ve known you. I must admit that running away from your memories was excruciating and moving on without you proves to a more painful one. Thousand moments of wanting you back have passed, but I have realized thousand times too that you are happy now. You are happy now, that is why I need to move on ALONE.


My days ended with countless sighs. Our euphoric memories constantly haunted me, followed by your agonizing goodbye. Erasing your text messages on my phone proved to be a painful thing to do, while “moving on” quotes flooded my cell phone though I did not really warrant it. Our heart-rending story had become the favorite tell-tale story of our friends and brushing elbows with them followed by the inevitable question “how’s life goin? Had been the most complicated question I had received. I had been like this for like tons of times, but yeah, I know… You’re gone that’s why it’s been like this.


I know, that’s the same reason why I give up, I’m tired of hoping that you’ll still come back. My eyes had gone dry from always crying. I’m exhausted from the figment of you WITH me. Gone are the days that I could still understand you. Im fed up. Im confused. I’m sick and tired of undergoing this insufferable burden. I give up. When will the time that I too will be happy and free? I need to let go. I need to let YOU go. I need to start a new life and gather up the once fragmented and broken me. It’s been quite a long time since I was hanging in this subtle melancholia, and its time to let go of this saddest part of my life.


Im tired and I could not think of any more words to say. The words that I should have uttered are now gone and my mind had gone exhausted. I LOVE YOU but this time, for the last time… Goodbye FOREVER… :(